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离离原上草<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>一岁一枯荣<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>野火烧不尽<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>春风吹又生<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>
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<p>早晨洗头发的时候突然想起来这么几句<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>虽说不是说的脑袋上那点毛<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>好歹也同样是割了一茬又一茬的东西<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>又想到这么多年短发长发短发长发的也见证了自己思维的变迁<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>那就也留下几个字给自己日后凭悼吧<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
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<p>本我时代</p>
<p>小时候分辨男女没有这么多方法<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>小孩子都长得差不多声音也中性<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>唯一的区别便是头发的长短<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>扎小辫的一般是女的<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>短发的也大都是大人们口中的小兔崽子<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>理发店叫娟子的很多<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>我家楼下也有一个<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>已经记不得当年那位在我眼中善良美丽的大姐姐叫什么名字<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>但是偶尔想到小时候在她那里剪头发却会突然的温暖那么一小下<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>给小孩子剪头发并不是一件容易的事情<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>虽然年纪小对于发型的好看与否不是那么重要<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>但是小孩爱动<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>刮后脑勺的时候还会怕疼<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>看到过有很多理发给理哭的<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>但是我在她那里很多次都没碰到过由于技术原因把我弄疼的情况<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>每次都是我妈逼着我去剪头发<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>那时候不想去理发的主要原因是那些剪碎的头发弄到衣领里很不舒服<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>洗完了睡觉还会粘在枕头上<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>给我<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>1</font>块<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>5</font>去理发<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,5</font>毛是理发的钱<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,1</font>块钱是为了补偿我所谓的心理损失<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>本我时代由自我快乐所支配<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>不用理会头发好看与否<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>只要不难受<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>然后得到立即的满足<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
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<p>自我时代</p>
<p>年纪稍大的时候<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>理发已经涨价了<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,3</font>块<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>初中时候的头发依然挺短<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>虽然我很想跟某些同学一般显的特别一点头发留得稍微长一点<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>但是这个念头在那几年里一直没有得到过实现<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>总是在头发长度差不多的时候接过老爹或者老妈给我的十块钱<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>不情愿的去修枝剪草<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>经常去理发的店子已经不是鹃子了<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>在我没有留意的某一天那个小理发店已经换成了一家零食铺<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>试了好几家的手艺<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>最终在家对面巷子里找了家叫温柔发廊的<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>老板是个年轻的帅小伙<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>那时候特羡慕他齐肩的长发<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>跟那时候街上大把的黄毛不同<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>他就在头发里稍微挑染了几缕淡金色<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.(</font>参考电影杀破狼里面洪金宝饰演的角色<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>)</font>老板剪头发特快<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,5</font>分钟不到连剪带洗吹<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>手艺过硬也不严肃<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>笑嘻嘻的让我少了点压力<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>自我时代并不能总满足自己的意愿<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>我们开始学会压抑自己的想法让自己在人群里看起来不是那么特别<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>保护自己不承受周围人群的异样眼光<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
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<p>复本我时代</p>
<p>熬来熬去终于熬到了大学时代<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>父母终于不会再督促着自己去理发<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>想督促也没办法<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>回家说头发长了<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>好的<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>回学校我再去剪吧<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>到了学校就把这事给忘记得烟消云散<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>大一的时候第一次超过半年没有去剪头发<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>临了快放假的时候有楼上寝室的问我们宿舍的<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>:</font>你们寝室咋总有个胖妞坐在那用电脑来着<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>谁的女朋友啊<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>?</font>我室友先是一楞<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>然后笑得直不起腰来<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>长发也有不方便的时候<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>晚上去洗澡的时候如果洗了头发第二天早晨起来头发怎么弄都跟个鸡窝似的<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>别的办法用尽都不怎么理想<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>忍住自己从材料室拿速干水泥往自己脑袋上抹的冲动<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>每天早晨都起来用洗发水再洗过一次头发<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>寝室的热水瓶隔几个小时就不保温<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>早晨起来烧水又太慢<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>干脆直接就洗的冷水<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>益阳冬天的自来水特别的冷<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>咬咬牙洗完擦干去教室的路上总感觉被风吹成了一脑袋的钢丝<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>到教室上完了一节课却又发现自己脑袋上热气蒸腾<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>活象个修炼易筋经的俗家弟子<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>些许困难没能让我放弃<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>大学时候除了过年和暑假<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>毕业后回家正式工作以前<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>头发一直保持在中长状态<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>复本我时代<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>我固执的坚持着自己的快乐与满足<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
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<p>超我时代</p>
<p>快乐的日子总是不会太长<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.(</font>有谁知道这句话哪个王八蛋说的来着<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>?)</font></p>
<p>工作很快就定下来了<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>政府职能部门工作<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>严肃刻板<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>缺乏弹性<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>还有教条般的各种规章制度<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>虽然没有哪条明文规定工作人员不准留长发<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>但是总顶着一脑袋长毛在办公室晃来晃去也不是个办法<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>上班前一个星期我难得主动的去了朋友的店子把头发剪短了<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>虽然在镜子里怎么看怎么觉得别扭<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>但是起码顾及到了我未来同事的感受<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>也不至于让自己这么的鹤立鸡群<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>朋友的剪刀在我脑袋上面来回飞舞<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>看着头发一促促的掉地板上<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>有种说不出来的感觉<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>伸出手来偷偷的藏下了一小缕<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>夹在了哪本书里做个纪念<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>超我是良心或者道德的一道准线<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>阻止我们做错事<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>与本我自我的自私不同<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>超我也还会考虑别人的感受<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
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<p>写到这里本来也应该写完了<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>中午出门的时候看到了温柔发廊的老板<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>已经不复当年的神采飞扬<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>已经有些破旧的店面<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>还有略显得有些提早衰老的老板<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font>老板的发型也变了<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>短发<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>虽然头发色泽有点暗淡<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>但是我也不得不承认这个发型更适合现在这个年纪的他<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
<p>晚上吃晚饭的时候老妈突然提起<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>:</font>你以后要是找女朋友第一千万记得看人家的头发是个啥样子的<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>要是是那种火鸡头之类<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>审美观有问题连自己都收拾不好的女人<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>, </font>你千万别给我找回来了<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font><font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>(</font>全文完<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>)</font></p>
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<p><font face="Times new=" Roman? New?> </font><font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>“我从来没有绝望过”我认准的事情,就会把它做下去,我认准的路,就会把它走到底。</font></p>
<p><font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>美丽坚强的女超人渔之,加油.</font></p>
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<p>写给各位心怀理想或者是梦想的各位<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>能坚持的<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>继续坚持吧<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>,</font>不死心还在<font face="Times new=" Roman? New?>.</font></p>
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